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The 100 themes challenge

Themes:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
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20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Sometimes I just feel...

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 22, 2014, 9:42 PM
...that Project Depth is cursed. 
First I found the dream, then what appeared to be a dedicated dream team of programmers, graphic artists and helpers and then the nightmare. 
The programmers turned out to be a bunch of lousy, good for nothing stealing, backstabbing idiots who finally put me in the hospital out of stress. Hospital bills then began piling up resulting in me being unable to further employ the graphic artist, a new team was found and they suddenly decided to ask for more money than the contract and then broke the equipment and then refused to pay for repair costs and finally stole my OS disk. Therapy bills were added in after I was diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder and Bipolar Disorder and then I finally decided to move on and tried to do the game myself. Guess what happened? Game files were repeatedly wiped for some reason, I got repeatedly sick, and finally had a severe case of hypomania. Now the funny thing is hypomania usually results in you becoming more productive except in my case which it came in with depression and resulted in everything going downhill. Now I'm back to therapy, I got sacked from my new job and I'm on pills again. It really blew up in my face when after all my improvements in therapy my psychiatrist suddenly told me that I have badly deteriorated. And now recently when I decided to get back to it again only to have a bad case of back muscle spasm and being bed ridden for a whole week. 

A group of people volunteered to help so I sent them the script of my game so I could finally have someone to brainstorm with, but frankly it's like nobody can love this project like I do. Some just skimmed through it, others just forgot about it. I understand that someone who volunteers is not obligated to follow the project like a contractor but it still leaves me feeling deflated. Maybe everyone else feels that Depth is doomed to fail...

So yeah sometimes I just feel like Project Depth is cursed. Yet I don't want to let it go, because after all it put me through I feel like it's a complete waste if I let it go down the drain. Do you know how much I spent on it? How much energy went into gathering a team, forming a new team, all the brainstorming I had to do over it? 

Sorry for the complaints. I just don't know what to do anymore...thanks to my pills my hands now have permanent tremors so drawing is hard for me now. It's like life is trying to rob me of everything I can do. 

  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: A small desire's starry sky
  • Reading: Scripts
  • Watching: Anime
  • Playing: Evil Within / DoTA / Hopeless Masquerade
  • Eating: Food
  • Drinking: Tea

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arbaros
いや、全く何も、いや、私は後悔していない.
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
Philippines
Favourite genre of music: J-POP music
Favourite style of art: Anime
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano
Favourite cartoon character: Plenty
Personal Quote: Every human has darkness creeping somewhere in their mind, the difference between good and evil is that evil chooses to act upon that darkness and good chooses to draw the line.
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Do you prefer and/or use Android operated Tablets or iPad? (comments will be appreciated) 

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9 deviants said Android
40%
6 deviants said iPad

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:iconangelicacrystal:
AngelicaCrystal Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
That webcam... :dignity-laugh: 
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arbaros Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It was commissioned by the order of the Potato Emperor. :iconsaluteplz: 
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Kuross Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the favorite!
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arbaros Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
shhh, only dreams now. 
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Menulizz Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
TY for fav
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arbaros Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
boop
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ProjectXeniX Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Nice gallery!
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:iconarbaros:
arbaros Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
why thank you!
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ProjectXeniX Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Welcome!
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iris2501 Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist

:iconheehee-plz::iconsaysplz: Thank you so very much for the fav

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arbaros Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:icongwomp:
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vanadise Featured By Owner May 24, 2014
Salamat sa watch.. woohoo!
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arbaros Featured By Owner May 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
walang anuman
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pitkon Featured By Owner May 24, 2014   Interface Designer
Thanks so much for the fave on Robocain, I really appreciate it :)
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arbaros Featured By Owner May 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
most welcome
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Kadeys117 Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday...I have nothing to give you I am sorry :'(
I hope you have a great day!
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arbaros Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
it's ok thaaaanks!
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dabomb29 Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014
Happy Birthday!:D (Big Grin) 
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arbaros Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
 why thank you!
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dabomb29 Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014
:) (Smile) 
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